Motivational Monday

Starting Over

Running has not been going well. Or rather, running hasn’t happened in almost two weeks. I don’t really have an excuse. A few all-nighters and a lot of 18 hour days have been going on around here. I have been adjusting to the new job I absolutely love. The big event I hosted is over. Both Princess and Buckaroo are doing well. And somehow I am still maintaining a 4.0 in both of my classes. Yes. All of that going on at the same time will get in the way of running. If I allow it too. Which somehow I did. You see. It was my choice to come home from work and get into my PJ’s rather than my running clothes. It was also my choice to say F someone’s impossible expectations I am taking an hour to myself. And actually taking that hour to myself. But most importantly it was my choice to not make the time for something that is very important to me. Yes. I see a pattern too. And a bad habit that continues to get in the way of not just my running, but my “me time”. Weekends away. And a vacation. Yes. I will continue to work on it.

So I have a little over six weeks until my race and I am starting my half-marathon training again. I know. It would be easier to just say f-it, but I could never forgive myself. So I will get out there when it cools down this evening. Put one foot in front of the other. And make it happen. I am not worried about my pace or finishing time. I just want to finish strong. And I think I can get my body and mind ready enough to do just that in six weeks. So yes. I am starting my half marathon training over. Or at least it feels that way. But the truth is, I am not starting over. I am picking up where I left off. It’s the f-ing first step that feels the same as starting over. But I know me. Giving up is not an option.

Stay tuned for a review. Job goings on. My June reflection(s) and July goals. Not necessary in that order. And of course, I sure look forward to seeing what you all have been up too

What have you done today to be active?

What’s for dinner? The boys are having pulled pork sandwiches (crock pot) and I am having a green salad with all the fixings.

How are you doing?

Until next time, always be true to yourself and think like a boss!

Mid June Goings On

Big Heart Over My Path!

I don’t know where June is going. But she seems to be an awful hurry. Okay. So it feels like the days are just flying by. But in reality a couple things I had in the works are coming together. And becoming a reality. Fall training has begun. DIY projects in my yard and home are done. And some DIY projects are still being worked on. And baby showers are being planned.

Heart Leaf

That job I interviewed for a while back? I start work this Wednesday. I am not nervous about doing my job well. I am nervous about trying to manage everything. All at once.

Heart Shadow

Grad school “decision makers” decided having extra classes going on in the summer was a good idea. I have no doubt the extra curse words. A few tears. And overwhelm will continue. But the good news is, I am at my halfway point this week. Only four more weeks of extra-ness overwhelm. Trust me its a thing. 

Heart Leaf

Two weeks in a row I made a goal to do something to nurture myself. Run away. Or do something just for me. And I failed miserably. So tomorrow I made a date with myself to sit by the pool. My thinking is F-you guilt that I am already and going to feel.Easier said then done. I hope guilt doesn’t win. 

Heart on a Leaf

Part of May and so far in June there has been some very petty negativity going on that I haven’t been able to completely get away from. Everyone learns differently about what is really important. I get that. What that said. Its one of those lose. Lose situations. I have taken as many steps back as I possibly can. But I am still at my wits end with it all.

Heart on a Leaf

I am off to the grocery store(s). I don’t know how I will manage adjusting to work, but I am extra grateful I am organized. I planned meals for the week and will be doing a little prep tomorrow evening.

Stay tuned for a review. A giveaway. A winner. An Award. And more. Not necessary in that order.

How is your Monday going?

What did you do today to be active?

Did you notice the heart above my running path in the first photo?

Until next time, always be true to yourself and think like a boss!

The Time. I Decided. Enough. Is F-ing Enough.

Prettiness

I have been thinking about this post all last week. I have been trying to figure out how to word it. So I don’t sound like a bitch. Or give negativity any life. But I can’t stop thinking about it. Stewing over it. And not saying anything about it. Well. Feels wrong.
It all started on twitter.

Yellow Leaf Heart

I was skimming through my twitter feed. Nothing unusual about it. Recipes. Running. News. Inspirational quotes. And then there was a tweet that one of my followers responded to that instantly made my blood pressure hit the roof. In part the tweet said “women, you don’t gain muscle mass that easily and definitely not by lifting 5lbs”. At first I thought maybe I was taking it out of context, so I followed the link to a post. Nope. Not out of context. Um. Are you f-ing kidding me?

Heart On a Leaf

A blue moon ago. I was lifting 5 pound weights. Which meant I made a commitment to get stronger. I made a commitment to be a better version of myself. And part of that journey started with lifting 5 pound f-ing weights. And what upset me the most about the tweet was. There is a person out there beginning their journey to be a better version of themselves. With five-pound weights. They don’t know what it feels like to look back. To see progress. To lift heavier weights. And I know that lifting those 5 pound weights. Will one day. Be totally worth it. The part that upsets me the most? There is a person out there who will be skimming through their twitter feed. See the tweet. Read the post. And decide lifting 5 pound weights isn’t worth it. And just give up on their journey to be a better version of themselves.

I didn’t respond to the tweet. Honestly I couldn’t think of a thing to say that would not breathe life into the negativity.
So I let it go. And went about my day. Until another interaction brought it up again two days later.

Red Heart

We had longtime friends over for a BBQ. By longtime friends. I mean 20 plus years. I was in their wedding. Before kids friends. She started running about a year or so ago. She runs to lose weight. Get in shape. And has participated in a number of races including a 10k. She is currently training for her first half marathon. We were talking about running. Training plans. Running in the hot ass weather we have been having. And she told me she was out running a while back. And someone driving by threw a water bottle at her. It missed hitting her in the head by mere inches. Um. Are you f-ing kidding me?!

At first I laughed. I tend to do that at the wrong times. Then I tried to see something positive about it.
“Was it hot out?”
“Maybe they were trying to be nice?”
“NO” she said
They were laughing and clearly trying to hit me with it”.

I felt awful for her. At the same time, I was so proud of her for not cutting her run short. Giving up on running. And giving up on becoming a better version of herself. Running is hard. Getting out there to run is even harder. But having a water bottle thrown at you? She had every reason to quit. And there is a person out there who may have already quit because some a-hole thinks throwing a water bottle at someone running. Is f-ing funny.
Later that evening I started writing a post. But it just ended up being a rant. That gave life to the negativity. Which is exactly what I didn’t want to do.

So I let it go. Again.But not for very long.

Heart Shadow

Until I was skimming through my twitter feed and saw a tweet from Runner’s World…….

“Have you (or someone you know) fallen victim to these top 10 running fashion faux pas?”
You can see the post here
Um. Are you f-ing kidding me?!

And I lost it.
@runnersworld I run. I wear what I want. I don’t give an F what anybody has to say about it. Every runner should do the same. End of story.

Here’s the thing. I prefer wearing shorts when I run in the pouring rain. Most of my shorts are very short. And if I was a man. I would run shirtless in the rain. With longer shorts of course. I am also the queen of matching.Making fun of what people shouldn’t wear when they run. Isn’t funny. At least to me.

For me it goes back to that one person that wore what Runner’s World called a “victim” of a fashion faux”. Or probably more people. If we are being realistic. Runner’s World has 800k followers on twitter. And maybe those people didn’t think it was funny either. So they decided to give up on running. They decided to give up on becoming a better version of themselves.
And that really upsets me.
And yes. The timing of the tweet had a little something to do with why it upset me.
But that’s not the point.

Green Leaf Heart

The point is. When I see someone start running. Or walking. Doing yoga. Pilates. Or swimming. When I see someone decide to lose weight. To live a more active and healthy life. Or make a change in their life to become a better version of themselves. Whether they are my best friend. Or someone I barely know. I am rooting for them. Routing them when and if I can. I want them to see progress. To feel progress. I want them to be successful. I want the best for them. Because I know how it feels to embark on a life changing goal. I know how it feels to reach a life changing goal. And I desperately want everyone to know that feeling. Because the truth is. If I can do it. Anyone can do it. Which means I am no better than you. And you are no better than me. Our journey in getting there is just different.

Green Heart

When I see a tweet that is riddled with superiority. Or Ridicule. Or I hear about a water bottle being thrown out a car window at a runner. What I don’t see. Is a mindset that is giving inspirational fuel to someone else. What I don’t see is someone routing for someone else to see progress. What I don’t see is someone using their knowledge. And experience to help someone else get to. Where ever it is that person wants to go. Whether that person is starting their journey to be a better version of themselves. Or they are close to reaching their goal to live a more active and healthy life. Because the truth is. We all can use as much inspirational fuel as we can get. Because becoming a better version of ourselves is hard f-ing work.

Heart Rock

This superiority and ridicule? It’s got to stop. Enough is f-ing enough. I am better than this. Everyone is better than this. Each and every one of us needs to support one another. In a positive way. To become a better version of ourselves. And if we can’t be positive. Nonjudgmental. Or supportive. Then maybe we should just not say anything at all.

So how about we all. Make it a personal goal. To be authentic. Supportive. Kind. To take every opportunity we have to give others inspirational fuel on their journey of being a better version of themselves.

Stay tuned for a wrap-up of May in Photos. June goals. And more.

And yes. One of my June goals is to find a way to organize my blog. And my blog posts.
I know I have asked you before, but any thoughts on how I can do better? Nothing has worked so far and its driving me a little crazy.

Did you. Or are you racing this weekend?

What’s for dinner?

Until next time, always be true to yourself and think like a boss!