If you are embarking on any personal journey towards living a healthier, happier, active life, chances are you know what you have to do. You’ve heard it. Seen it written all over social media. Or even written it yourself. I am talking about three words. Three words hold the only key to unlocking a better version of yourself. Three words. You know what they are. Say them with me. Believe. In. Yourself.
We all have something we believe in. And why not believe in the very person. Who decides whether or not we will finish that race. Lose the weight. Get in shape. Make better food choices. Drink less booze. Or love ourselves more. Believe. In. Yourself. It sounds easy enough right?
The half-true is, believing in myself is easy. Beautiful. Sexy even. Self-confidence runs through my veins. Sure I have dark moments. Or a series of dark moments when I doubt myself. And what I am capable of. And yes. Those moments are difficult. But at the same time. I know they are only dark moments. I know that if I can recognize my dark moments. I need to be ready to show up for a positive versus negative reasons not to quit debate in my head. I know that if I hold my positive ground in that debate. I will win. And before I walk away. I will thank those dark moments for making me a stronger version of myself. I will achieve my goal (s). Make another. And my life goes on. But that’s only half the truth.
The whole truth of believing in myself is much murkier. Less sexy. Darker. Painful. Difficult. And sometimes downright f-ing ugly.
But nobody wants to talk about the murky. Less sexy part of believing in ourselves. Or the dark and difficult moments. Or series of moments. When we are left alone. With ourselves. Left alone with our version of the truth about ourselves. The series of moments when our version of the truth will strip us down to the core of our authenticity. Vulnerability. And weaknesses. Again. And again. Until we learn to fall in love with who we are. And our authenticity. No. Nobody wants to talk about the difficult parts when giving up on ourselves is a viable option. And staying the same means more than becoming a better version of ourselves. Nobody wants to talk about how valuable the downright f-ing ugly parts of believing in ourselves will be for us to become a better version of ourselves. And a stronger version of ourselves. Nobody wants to talk about how f-ing hard believing in yourself is, in a world where the health and beauty industries make billions of dollars off you. Or me. By not believing in ourselves. No. Most of the time, everyone wants to talk about half the truth. Because half the truth is easy. And half the truth isn’t painful.
You see, I didn’t wake up one day believing in myself. It didn’t arrive on a white horse. Or in the mail. It wasn’t delivered by a stork. And I sure the hell didn’t open it on Christmas morning. I didn’t buy any of the latest diets craze. Or beauty fads. No. The less sexy. Downright ugly parts of believing in myself happened over time.
The self-confidence running through my veins comes from my experiences. Mindfulness. Taking chances. Falling. Getting back up. Letting go. Pushing harder. Finishing. Starting over again. And learning to fall in love with myself. Yes. All that happened over time too.
But now that I am here. It’s beautiful. Sexy even. To not give two Fs what Running World has to say about what I wear running. Or what I don’t wear running. To not give two Fs about naysayers but also remember how far I have come to get to here. Where I am today. To get to a place in my life where I feel protective over the runners and other people out there who are going through the much murkier. Less sexy. Darker. Painful. Difficult. And sometimes downright f-ing ugly parts of believing in themselves.
So if you are embarking on any personal journey towards living a healthier, happier, active life. Or you are somewhere on that journey. Trust me when I say this. I can’t tell you how to believe in yourself. Nobody can tell me how to believe in myself. We have to want something more than staying the same. We have to go through a series on not-so-sexy moments to find out who we are. We have to be willing to learn how fall in love with ourselves. Our self-worth. And the breathing taking perfection of our own authenticity.
But what I can tell you is this. No.Wait. What I can promise you. Is every single part of going through your journey to the whole truth of believing in yourself. Is apso-f-ing-lutely worth it.
Stay tuned for, in no particular order……..looking back at May in photos. Going forward in June. Big changes. A review. The winner of a Spartan entry. And more.
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Until next time, always be true to yourself and think like a boss!