This weekend I will officially be “in my 40’s”. And I am not sure why, but feels like more of a milestone birthday than actually turning 40. Yes. My 40th birthday was supposed to be the scary one. Only it didn’t scare me. No. Instead I woke up the morning of my 40th birthday feeling different. Changed somehow. Even though I embraced that change like a boss, I spent nearly the entire year trying to figure out was that change was.
Somewhere in the chaos of the past month or so, I realized what was different about me. What had changed when I turned 40 is I wholeheartedly began to devote my time and energy to what was truly important to me and what I wanted in my life. That’s not to say I didn’t do the same before. I just got better about devoting my time and energy to doing things that nourished my personal growth. Health. And wellbeing. I got better about not devoting my time or energy to involving people in my life who took advantage of my willingness to give. Love. Or my kindness. And I got better about recognizing who and what I devoted my time and energy on what no longer served me.
So now that I will officially be “in my 40’s”, it does feel a little scarier than turning 40, but it also feels more exciting. Because I know who I am better than I ever have before. I have learned I am still young enough to do anything I want to do. But I am old enough to know what I don’t never want to do again. I know the world isn’t going to end if I say no to someone and do what is best for me. I also know that saying no and doing what is best for me, takes a lot of practice, but I am getting better at it. I also know that not being so hard on myself takes a lot of practice too.
This past year, I learned the difference between telling myself I can’t do something and actually believing I can’t do something. I know that I am an amazing mother even when I don’t feel like one. But most importantly, I know that being in my 40’s also means the best is yet to come.
Did you run or walk today?
Do you have any exciting plans for the weekend?
Have you found a heart yet?
Until next time, always be true to yourself and think like a boss!