Despite my cutting my run short yesterday, I did feel a little progress. Not I can run a half in two weeks progress, but the impact feels a little less jarring in my lower back. I am not going to get too excited though, if I have learned anything from this injury, when I make my comeback does not feel in my control. Except for the not giving up part of course. But the taking it easy and slow has been so difficult, especially when things have felt a little extra overwhelming the past week. I have been running in the middle of the day, I am not sure why I tend to run in the evenings. Habit maybe? But I seem to do better in the late mornings/afternoon (at least the past couple of days) so I am going to keep going with it!
Sometimes I feel like doing the right thing and being the “bigger person” is also an opportunity for others to just walk all over me. Why? I refuse to react. Or buy into their BS. At the same time, they continue to be hurtful. I started this week feeling like I am part of the problem. You see, by trying to be the bigger person, not reacting and not saying anything, I am also giving the perception the things that are done and said are okay, yes? Which they are nothing close to okay, but I feel that have exhausted every other solution I can think of. And I have been struggling to decide whether removing myself from any family goings on completely, will change anything. Further, my time, how I spend it and with whom is valuable to me. And I just don’t have it in me anymore to waste time on people and situations that are not positive and productive. Does that make sense? With the holidays coming, perhaps it’s not the best time to consider stepping completely away from family, but I just do not know what else I can do.
Speaking of the holidays, I started on one of my nephews quilts for Christmas. I love doing appliqué and he loves cars, I think it’s going to turn out so cute! It makes me a sad I may not be there to see his reaction, but at the end of the day I have to do what is best for me and my family right?
No word on the job I really, really want yet. I did learn I have about a 50/50 chance of getting an interview so I am still crossing everything and hoping it’s the job for me. Also I was referred to the hiring department for another job. That’s good news. No word on how my tests for the city went either. But I can honestly say I have let go of thinking the city and county will be any faster than they have been with things and just because I haven’t heard anything does not mean I still don’t have a great chance. And I trust that I will end up where I am supposed to.
I found out I finish grad school four months before I previously thought, which was a relief. S#&* got real in grad school starting last week and it was a rude reminder I need to keep taking one assignment at a time, it’s going to be a long haul.
It looks like Princess will be moving back home on Friday for a while. Just until the place she will be living is ready. It will be nice to have her around more often. I haven’t been able to help much with the packing/transition process, but she seems to be handling things well on her own.
Its time for me to lace up and hit the trail, I am thoroughly enjoying the Fall running weather! And I look forward to seeing what you pretty awesome people have been up too!
How is your week going so far?
Do you dress up for Halloween?
Are you working on any crafty projects?
Did you run or walk today?
Until next time, always be true to yourself and think like a boss!