Wednesday Things

Never Give Up

Despite my cutting my run short yesterday, I did feel a little progress. Not I can run a half in two weeks progress, but the impact feels a little less jarring in my lower back. I am not going to get too excited though, if I have learned anything from this injury, when I make my comeback does not feel in my control. Except for the not giving up part of course. But the taking it easy and slow has been so difficult, especially when things have felt a little extra overwhelming the past week. I have been running in the middle of the day, I am not sure why I tend to run in the evenings. Habit maybe? But I seem to do better in the late mornings/afternoon (at least the past couple of days)  so I am going to keep going with it!

Yellow Heart

Sometimes I feel like doing the right thing and being the “bigger person” is also an opportunity for others to just walk all over me. Why? I refuse to react. Or buy into their BS. At the same time, they continue to be hurtful. I started this week feeling like I am part of the problem. You see, by trying to be the bigger person, not reacting and not saying anything, I am also giving the perception the things that are done and said are okay, yes? Which they are nothing close to okay, but I feel that have exhausted every other solution I can think of. And I have been struggling to decide whether removing myself from any family goings on completely, will change anything. Further, my time, how I spend it and with whom is valuable to me. And I just don’t have it in me anymore to waste time on people and situations that are not positive and productive. Does that make sense? With the holidays coming, perhaps it’s not the best time to consider stepping completely away from family, but I just do not know what else I can do.

Speaking of the holidays, I started on one of my nephews quilts for Christmas. I love doing appliqué and he loves cars, I think it’s going to turn out so cute! It makes me a  sad I may not be there to see his reaction, but at the end of the day I have to do what is best for me and my family right?

The Beginning of Something Beautiful

No word on the job I really, really want yet. I did learn I have about a 50/50 chance of getting an interview so I am still crossing everything and hoping it’s the job for me. Also I was referred to the hiring department for another job. That’s good news. No word on how my tests for the city went either. But I can honestly say I have let go of thinking the city and county will be any faster than they have been with things and just because I haven’t heard anything does not mean I still don’t have a great chance. And I trust that I will end up where I am supposed to.

Fall Beatifulness Heart

I found out I finish grad school four months before I previously thought, which was a relief. S#&* got real in grad school starting last week and it was a rude reminder I need to keep taking one assignment at a time,  it’s going to be a long haul.

Heart in The Pond

It looks like Princess will be moving back home on Friday for a while. Just  until the place she will be living is ready. It will be nice to have her around more often. I haven’t been able to help much with the packing/transition process, but she seems to be handling things well on her own.

Green Heart

Its time for me to lace up and hit the trail, I am thoroughly enjoying the Fall running weather! And I look forward to seeing what you pretty awesome people have been up too!

How is your week going so far?

Do you dress up for Halloween?

Are you working on any crafty projects?

Did you run or walk today?

Until next time, always be true to yourself and think like a boss!

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20 thoughts on “Wednesday Things

  1. Yes, good luck on the job front; and yes, grad school is a beast sometimes!

    Moreover, I’m really sorry about your issues. I have experienced EXACTLY what you describe, except mine is in the work world. I appear weak when I’m just coping, so they walk on me and trash me (in the past), but if I tip my hand and let them know that I know, the shit will get even more real because they know I can handle it–so I have few options. My position is not transferable and frankly, I would have to completely change careers. And I don’t have the balls. Yet.

    Perhaps some day?

    Anyway, hang in there, and keep doing what keeps YOU strong. Without a strong you, you have NOTHING. Hugs over the cyberwaves to you!

    PS: I hate bullies. Hoping your situation isn’t that bad!

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    • Thank you so much and for sharing with me, I wish I could say things are better, but it seems the blows have kept coming and twice as hard yesterday and today. Doing my best to breath and remember things will turn around once it all sifts out. Again thank you so much! ❤

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      • Booo. I’m so sorry, I’d like to say it gets better. But sometimes it doesn’t after you get the degree. I wish I could write candidly about my horrid experiences in a particular job–and the abuse I have endured for 15 years. Maybe that can be a novel! I should do NaNoWriMo (if I had time). Sigh.
        HOPEFULLY it will get better–but if nothing else, it will make you tougher? That bullsh**t talk never made me feel better either.
        Hang in there and know we’ve got your back.
        And run when it gets too shitty 🙂 Happy endorphins will help a little bit!

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      • Sounds like a wonderful idea for a book! And it’s so true just got back from a run, mostly in tears but it’s helped so much. This too shall pass. I will try and see if I can make a post that only certain people can read so have more of an idea what’s going on. Again, thank you so much for your support, kindness, encouragement and more. ❤

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  2. It’s always interesting seeing some of the parallels going in other bloggers’ lives and my own. You have your back injury and I have my groin injury. It’s been a long struggle for me to get to where I am now and I am so far from where I was before my injury. I took a couple of weeks off because of my knees, but I started again this Sunday — a walk/run of a little over six miles, with more run than walk. It was a mistake. It didn’t both my knees, but there was tightening in other areas the rest of the day. Since then, I’ve done walk/runs of three miles every evening. I’m doing it because I have to. I absolutely have to engage in this exercise for my physical health, but more importantly for my mental health. What I’m trying to do though is take it slower. The idea of a walk/run is something that I would have scoffed at a couple of years ago. I have no choice. Plus I’m trying to keep the mileage down and don’t increase it too much too quickly.

    As for the other parallel, your references to family issues …. although you don’t provide too many details, I’m right there with you. I think.

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    • I am happy you are continuing to get out there, I’m not sure when but it will be so worth it!

      The family stuff is complicated I’ve talked a little about it quite a while ago, but don’t go into it since it’s public. But I can imagine it’s similar! And to add to the stuff dealing with bit of a crisis with Buckaroo, not sure how to handle it just yet trying to wait until I’m less upset/angry/disappointed before I make any decisions. But nothing like being kicked when you are already down, I just don’t understand it. Nor am I trying just doing my best to remind myself tomorrow is another day and this too shall pass.

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  3. You have so much going on in your life and in the things going on in your community. I know you will be able to push through and figure these things out. I hope your running continues to feel better. That alone will help so very much!!!

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  4. I ran into this problem with a friend and family member recently. I usually am so tolerant, but I was growing tired of getting run over or disregarded. After filtering through all of my feelings, and gaining a bit of bravery, I finally decided that just because we’ve known each other all our lives, doesn’t mean we have to be friends! It’s hard to maintain relationships as adults, especially when kids are involved. So I decided that I would only put effort in the ones where people were willing to give back! Life is too short to have to deal with negativity! I hope it all works out for you!

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