Tootsie Tuesday

October 12, 2013

This was from the other day. Last Saturday to be exact. I was three miles from home.  I didn’t want to take it easy. Take it slow. Or walk. No. I was done showing up. Only to show up and be beaten by running again. And again.  I didn’t want to turn around and go home. I was done. Finished. Frustrated. Overpowered. Crushed. And defeated. I wanted to call someone to come pick me up. It was a moment or a rather series of moments when I finally understood what all this quitting nonsense is about. And I don’t mean quitting a workout or turning around and going home quitting. I mean tears streaming down my face, F you running we are done, quitting. But somehow, in those moments I also understood that all the reasons why I wanted to quit, were exactly why I needed to keep going. You see, I know what it feels like when all my training finally pays off. I know that sore muscles don’t stay sore for long. I know what it feels like to challenge myself to be faster and better. And I become faster and better. That is why I am so hard on myself. That is why this injury has been so difficult for me. And that is why my running isn’t good enough for me lately. I know I can and have done better. I have been faster. I am showing up. I am putting one foot in front of the other.  I am not turning around and going home or having someone come pick me up. I am not quitting. I finished those three miles on Saturday. And I did another 4.5 miles yesterday. I am putting in the time. Dedication. Commitment. Mileage. Sweat. Tears. And putting one foot in front of the other. I am not there yet. But now I understand why so many people give up. I am not one of those people. I know what it feels like to not quit and get to where I am going.  I know at some point if I keep showing up. I will feel real progress. And I will get to where I am going again.

 

Have you ever seriously considered quitting something?

If you have considered quitting, but didn’t, what made you change your mind?

Until next time, always be true to yourself and think like a boss!

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31 thoughts on “Tootsie Tuesday

  1. I stopped running for 20 years, not so much because I quit but because it was so hard to start back up again after years off.

    My injury isn’t 100 percent, but it’s ok enough to mindfully run. And what I am finding is that despite a four week break, my running is coming back even stronger than before. I hope it continues, but I don’t want to get over excited and re-injure. But I do appreciate how important running is to me in the scheme of things, something I didn’t eclectic out of having to sit it out for awhile while hurt.

    In other words, hang in there! It will get better.

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  2. Last year I almost quit running. I was burned out after my first marathon-complete disaster! Quit running with my training group. Ran on my own and then ended up with a stress fracture that sidelined me for three months. I thought-this is my sign. Get out of running now. Try crossfit or tennis or something!!!! But I couldn’t quit running. And when I started back, man those first 6-8 weeks sucked! I was used to running 8-10 miles at a time and had to start at 2 miles and slowly build.

    But somewhere in all of that, I realized how MUCH I truly loved running. So I kept pushing and pushing. Finally I was not only back to where I was, I was better.

    You CAN do this. You have already proven to yourself you can endure this “trial.” Just keep reminding yourself that you are doing something that you love.

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    • Thank you so much for your thoughts and encouragement! And I am so happy your comeback was even better! I am holding on so tight to knowing I do love running and that I will get past this and I look forward to the day when I can look back on this and say the same! 🙂

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  3. The pain in my knees the last time I ran … now slightly more than a week ago … has put a major damper on my interest in running. Have I quit? No. I’m just not sure when I’m going to run again. I’m afraid to. I’m afraid the pain will still be there. I’m afraid that if it is, it will mean I need to quit. I know I could see a doctor about the pain, but I am so monumentally done with doctors and my pain.

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    • Oh no! 😦 I completely understand all of it, as I have been considering seeing a specialist, even to just ease my mind that I am on track, in recovery/healing wise. With that said, despite what my chiro says, I am also afraid of the answers. At the same time some of the things I have been most afraid of ended up being not as bad as I had worked them up to be in my head. So I do hope you will look more into it, from what I do know about you, you are not a quitter and I do know that not knowing is a terrible feeling. I am sending healing thoughts your way! 🙂

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  4. I think most of us have experienced exactly what you described at some point. It can be so hard to keep going, when we are not where we want to be and know how much better we are capable of running. You WILL get there, and how lucky you are to know the great feelings that you are chasing down with each run. So many people never get to that joy and quit because they don’t know what they are missing. We bloggers try to describe it, but people don’t understand. You know what you’re after, and you will make it. Meanwhile, you’re an inspiration to the rest of us!

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    • Thank you so much for your thoughts and encouragement! I agree that I am chasing down what some people have never felt, its definitely what keeps me going even in the most difficult times. I do look forward to getting to the other side of this obstacle! 🙂

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  5. Injuries are rough. The emotions are hard on anyone who just wants to run and enjoy it. I’m glad you pushed through. I know that you will get back and be better than ever!!! You just have that type of spirit!

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  6. You are definitely not a quitter! I know you will come through this and be better than ever…it’s all in due time. RTT Jr looked discouraged after our run yesterday. His first time to run, and he popped out almost 2 miles without stopping. I was super proud of him…for putting forth the effort, and also for pushing me to try to keep up with HIM, lol. I asked him what was wrong, and he said he wanted to go further….faster. He felt like he should be running 3 miles non-stop right from the start. I told him it wouldn’t happen overnight…that it would take time and he would work up to it, but to keep trying and listen to his body. Same for you….except you’ve already felt the thrill of victory and pr’s! Keep that head up high, and remember every step you take is a winning step! YOU’VE GOT THIS!

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    • Thank you so much! Its been a challenge, I think I go back and forth accepting how things are, one day I am okay with it the next not so much. Mean while my race date nags at me. Deep breathes, you are right, “I’ve got this”, its taking far longer than I thought, but I will get make a comeback at some point. 🙂

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  7. I don’t know that I’ve seriously considered quitting running, though I’ve been temporarily forced out by injuries. But after my second half-marathon I found myself just not wanting to run. My strategy was to really back off, use the “easy run” idea of training and do that every run, for short distances, with the idea that the goal of training was over; the new goal was to enjoy running again! That worked for me. Good luck

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  8. wow so well said!! I think every runner battles these thoughts during training…running isn’t easy and yet we show up every day because of all the things you mentioned…a strange internal desire to prove we can and a pride when we do.

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