When I set a goal I don’t give up. Give in. I test the waters. I map out a plan. I get comfortable with the goal that I have set out to do. And I remain focused on that goal until I get there. I don’t back out of. Turn around. Failure is not an option. And I do what it takes to reach that goal. I know goals are not easy to reach. But I know I can do it. I show up. Again. And again. Even when I would rather not. I know I have what it takes. Most of the time. You see I tend to set big goals for myself. Not unrealistic goals. No. Just not run-of-the-mill goals that I will reach next week. Or the week after. No. Most of the goals I set are life changing. They are journeys. And they are opportunities for me to learn more about myself and proving to myself I am capable of anything I decide I want to do.
My mindset was no different when I decided to apply for graduate school. Now less than a month later, my journey to my goal. My graduation. Has already begun. Orientation is over. And if I really allow myself to think about it. I start freaking the F out. I know I have what it takes. But with this goal, there was no testing the waters. No mapping out a plan. No getting comfortable. No warming up I am off and running. My first assignment is due Tuesday. My course syllabus is full of assignments that are due in the coming weeks. My degree plan shows nearly two years of coming week’s assignments. Meanwhile my life. The life where I wear any one my vast collection of hats at any given moment. Goes on. And adding another hat to my collection, well, that made my goal feel nearly impossible to reach.
So I am not allowing myself to think about all the challenges that are between me and my goal. My graduation. And all the hats I will need to wear at any given moment. No. I decided what is between me and graduating are a series of run-of-the-mill goals that I will reach next week. And the week after. Each assignment will mean one less challenge. And one less challenge will mean one assignment closer to my goal. My graduation. It will not be easy. I may lose my way at times. I will have moments when I don’t believe in myself. I know this. But I also know my journey to my goal has already begun. There is no backing out of or turning back now. Giving up. Or giving in. No. As a runner who knows what it’s like to not be able to run. A runner who put one foot in front of the other like a boss until I could run again. I do know, no matter how defeated. Discouraged. Or impossible my goal feels. I do know I’ve got this.
In other news Buckaroo’s first week of school went well. A potential crisis with Princess was diverted. Homemade pesto from the garden was made and frozen for the winter. Yoga. Working out. And running. All felt amazing. It feels good to be sore again. I am slowly catching up with each and every one of you pretty awesome people. I am thoroughly grateful and super excited to see hearts in my inbox.
And Penny in my aviary has decided laying eggs in the food dish is far better than a nice, cozy, private nesting box especially made for her.
The photo doesn’t nearly show how difficult it looks to sit in the food dish or how uncomfortable she must be. I have given up on trying to change her mind. But I suppose that is point right?! Penny laying eggs in the nice, cozy, private nesting box would be easy. And that’s the thing. The best goals. The best outcomes. Are the goals. And the outcomes that I felt the were the most difficult and uncomfortable nearly every step of the way.
So tell me, does your goal feel difficult and uncomfortable sometimes?
Have you found a heart yet? If you have not, I trust that you will and I look forward to seeing what you find.
Until next time, always be true to yourself and think like a boss!