When I make a goal, I hold on to it tight. I show up. I do whatever it takes to reach that goal. I push myself. Dig deep. Stay focused. Think like a boss. Stay motivated. And I push myself harder. I keep showing up. I don’t give up. Lose sight of. Or give in. No. I keep going until I get to my goal. Nothing can stop my determination. My perseverance. My tenacity. To be better. Than I was yesterday. Or the day before. To prove to myself I can do whatever I decide I want to do. No. Nothing can stop me. Well nothing, except maybe an injury.
There is no amount of motivation. Staying focused. Determination. Perseverance. Or tenacity that is going to make my injury heal faster. I can’t push through it. Digging deep means staying positive. Giving in means letting go. And part of letting go means not punching that countdown to the right of my page, right square on its widget nose. Staying focused means being grateful for the painfully slow progress of healing my injury. And thinking like a boss means that I know letting go of my goal, isn’t the same as giving up.
Yesterday I went for an 8 mile run walk/run. And it just about did me in. My injury is not worse. No. My injury is and was just over-the-top f-ing mad at me. So I have decided I am not going to do my half marathon in 15 days. It’s not possible. Not because I couldn’t actually do it. Because I most likely could. But it wouldn’t be wise. And like most bets with an injury, it’s an unsafe bet. And I am not willing to bet I could do it on the future of my running.
So today I am loosening my grip on my goal. And slowly letting go. I know I have what it takes to get there when I make a new goal. There will be more races. More opportunities to show up. More opportunities to be better than I was yesterday. Or the day before. And more opportunities to prove to myself that I can do whatever I decide I want to do. But the truth is? Letting go of a goal is just as difficult as holding on tightly to a goal. I still have to show up and continue reminding myself that letting go is not the same as giving up.
Has letting go something ever felt like giving up to you?
Until next time, always be true to yourself and think like a boss!