Believing in Yourself is Half the Battle

Heart in the ShadowIt’s official. I have been accepted into graduate school. I am still in shock. I think? It has all happened so fast! I start the 27th of August and orientation is next week. Right now I am back paddling with my decision. Shock maybe? I just decided and applied a week ago! But at the same time, I am thinking why not. And if not now, then when? I am looking forward to running walk/running about it. Princess and I are going in a little while. She is so excited for me. And as a mother, I can’t help but feel a little extra proud being able to show my daughter she can do anything she sets her mind out to do. Believing in yourself is half the battle. And all this back paddling I am doing, I know is just part of me not believing I can do it. Right?!

In other news, I am making a decision this week about my half marathon. I am still making progress with healing, but its painfully slow. At this point I don’t feel like running a half marathon in three weeks is realistic! Unless I walk/run it, but is that even possible? I feel like registering for another one in a couple of months is a better idea. But I haven’t given up on my original goal in three weeks. Just yet. And I know not running it is not giving up, it’s the result of an injury, but my heavens it sure feels like giving up.

Until next time, always be true to yourself and think like a boss!

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42 thoughts on “Believing in Yourself is Half the Battle

  1. Congratulations!!! It is normal to second guess yourself, but just remind yourself why you applied to graduate school in the first place and remember all of the other times you felt fear and overcame it. You most certainly can do this and any other challenge that comes your way, and whether you run the half-marathon in three weeks or another one in three months, you are and always will be the BOSS!!!

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    • Thank you so much! That is what I am thinking, I am already trying to prepare myself for the “worse” of things. And honestly I am already worrying about statistics which isn’t until my 3rd semester, but I know that will be one of my most challenges courses. πŸ˜‰

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  2. Congrats on grad school. What will you be studying?
    As for your half marathon. I don’t know what your injury is, but I’ve learned valuable lessons in this area. Don’t rush it. Take it slow and look for another one a few months from now. Let yourself heal. I forced the issue with my last half marathon and, almost two years later, I’m still not running.

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    • Thank you! I am studying Public Administration and with my healthcare background I hope to implement some changes/improvements with regard to mental health services in my community or lack thereof.

      Great points on my half marathon! And you said exactly what I am worried about. I injured my back L-5, its probably the most severe structural injury I have had, so I am feeling really cautious about allowing it to thoroughly heal and taking things slow. Which has been a challenge in itself since I am used to bouncing back pretty fast from previous injuries! But this one is taking it own sweet time. πŸ˜‰

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      • Good luck to you. I work as an attorney in a California state agency that just got authority to run a grant program for mental health services throughout California. I’m not sure of the exact amount, but I think it’s in excess of $100 million that we’ll be doling out in grant funds.
        Regarding the running … just before I began training for my fourth half marathon, I tore a groin muscle playing soccer, but didn’t realize it was that bad. I stopped playing soccer and kept running. Two months later, I played soccer again and tore the muscle again. I stopped playing soccer but kept training for the half marathon. The muscle didn’t bother me until I got to the longer distances. Typically after nine or ten miles. I ran the half marathon about two months after the second tear. The last half was the most miserable six miles of my life. I played soccer a month later and tore it again. I stopped running. I stopped everything and finally saw a doctor about three months later. A year of physical therapy later, nothing had improved and I gave up on the sports doc and sports therapist. This spring I started bicycling again because it, generally, isn’t impacted by the groin injury. Problem is that I still can’t run. Learn from my lesson. πŸ˜‰

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      • Oh wow, that is hopeful/wonderful news! The lack of services in Northern CA is such a problem!

        Oh heavens, sorry to hear about your injury and no running and thank you for your thoughts! I decided I am not doing my 1/2, I went on an 8 mile walk/run and it just about did me in. I am not taking any chances. *sigh* I will chose one once I get to where my injury doesn’t bother me and I am truly back to running. πŸ™‚

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  3. Congratulations! That’s quite the exciting accomplishment! And I understand your feeling with the half. It takes time to heal and its frustrating but you’ll get there!

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  4. CONGRATS! Amazing — and hope we get to hear more about the program and the new, fun journey you’re starting!

    And of course, from one runners who’s been there — good luck on the decision about the half. I know I agonized far longer than I probably needed to for my last half, but ultimately you just have to listen to your body and trust yourself (easier said than done)

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  5. Woo Hoo!! Good for you. You are going to rock it!
    If you have to think about doing that half marathon, don’t do it. Heal up!! You will so much regret doing it only to hurt yourself. Right?!

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    • There is a time limit, 6 hours. Which I could do as things stand now. I am going to try going for a longer run/walk and see how I feel. The biggest thing is the impact of the running is still very uncomfortable, I just don’t want to mess any progress I have made. πŸ™‚

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  6. Congratuations! Yes, you’re back-paddling is that all-too-common anxiety that you might fail. You’re just second-guessing yourself. I do it all the time when I make a major decision, no matter how well thought out it is. Just keep moving forward and once you’re in grad school, you’ll be too busy to have self-doubt πŸ˜‰ You should be proud of the example you are setting for your daughter, and she will be proud of you for what you accomplish. Not sure about the marathon in 3 weeks. You might have to listen to that doubt because it involves your body and injuries and you don’t want to backslide on your healing. Could you just walk the marathon? That might be a better transition than even a walk/run. Whatever you do, be safe, stay healthy, and congratulations again.

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    • Thank you so very much! I agree! And I think that with things happening so fast and it being a major decision I feel like I haven’t really had time to really think about it in depth. But I do feel better about it this morning and I just keep going back to…. if not now, then when? And it is neat to see Princess being excited about it, she was more self-involved when I did my BA. Now that she’s grown up a little, she can genuinely see the accomplishment of not only being accepted, but also doing it. πŸ™‚

      There is a 6 hour time limit for the half, I had not considered just walking it. I wonder if that is even okay to do? And that is my biggest worry, its taken 7 weeks to get this far and I don’t want to re-injure it and either start over or injure it worse.

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  7. Congratulations! πŸ™‚ “Believing in yourself is half the battle.” How true. Thanks for this post. Sometimes its nice to know other people are struggling with and overcoming self doubt. Love your blog!

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  8. Congratulations on your acceptance! I try to remember those women who achieved their MDs later in life, or even those women who achieved their goals later in life. It’s never too late! But I completely understand about it being hard to believe in yourself! And I hope you keep the faith–it’s been very hard for me to go slowly (as an older runner)–when I was young I could get up to 2 miles in 2 weeks! Good luck whatever you decide about the race.

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    • Thank you! ❀ And I agree and its what I keep coming back to is the opportunity is here now and if I was to wait, would I ever go back? Oy major decisions are such a challenge and self doubt definitely doesn't help the matter.

      And yes! Its so true, most times I do have faith I will get back to where I was before, but then another week passes and sometimes it is so difficult! I also am trying to decipher whether my doubts/worry is coming from not believing I can do it, or genuinely listening to my body and knowing I am not ready for it. Right now I think its a little of both, so I am going to try going on a longer run and seeing how I feel. πŸ™‚

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  9. Good luck!!! πŸ™‚
    As far as the half, I cannot help you there. I’m training for my first one ever. It’s not until January or February (I haven’t signed up yet–not sure which one to do).
    All I have learned is you must listen to your body. And heed its warnings (don’t forget that part!). That means different things to different people, apparently. If you need to, save yourself for another day. I may have to do that with my upcoming triathlon. I have 5.5 weeks to prepare for it and I still don’t have clearance to ride my bike 😦

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  10. I love your positive attitude! You are really inspiring! Sometimes when a decision happens so quick and easily like that, it ends up being an amazing change that you look back on and think about how much better your life became because of it. Good luck! Oh, and PS: thanks for being my first comment πŸ˜‰

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  11. Congratulations!

    And whatever you decide about your half marathon is the right decision for you. I like Jogging Dad’s suggestion, if you’re up for it. Run/walking is a legit racing form. Just ask Jeff Galloway. But the important thing is being good to yourself.

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